Somedays I die. And today is one of those days.
How do I describe to someone the insanity of a severe spinal cord injury? Those times when you wake up and you feel like you are drowning?
Or, those times you feel like the most intense hangover and headache – without the headache?
I cannot see clearly, because I cannot process the images clearly.
Then I bend forward, and the pain in my lower back brings that comfort, the comfort of a long-lost hated friend.
Clarity returns briefly.
A physical injury is so different than say Parkinson’s or Alzheimer’s. You do not lose your brain, thank God for that. But, sometimes it takes awhile for you to find it.
And days like today, it literally feels like I am slowly recovering from drowning. I remember to tell myself to breathe, because automatic nerve commands seem to be slow.
And if anyone ever tells you, “You should vote for ObamaCare,” remember:
(1) I am a victim of Government Healthcare – experimental medicine, not what is known. The treatment to my not, so bad back injury destroyed my life. Government doctors (VA) tell me that it should not have done this.
Civilian doctors tell me, “Severe or chronic back injury is often the result of physical therapy.”
Government doctors take months to get an appointment, and seconds to cancel the appointment.
I live the result. It is not pretty. Nor is it fun.
(2) They want to experiment on you next.
Socialists hate Patriots, they hate Americans, so I hate Socialists.
What do you think?